January 2011
66 posts
Happy new year to me. I get to spend my night sitting at home balling my eyes out because all my friends fucking suck and no one gives a flying fuck about me. Really, I’m the selfish one? I do fucking everything I can for people and the second I need anything, even if it’s someone to talk to, nobody can be fucking bothered by me. I can’t wait to fucking leave here and never...
December 2010
33 posts
I wish that just once people would stop and take my feelings into consideration and maybe even ask me what I want to do. That’s my new years resolution…to start putting myself before everyone else every once in awhile. I do matter ya know.
day 30-the last argument you had:
I don’t remember the last argument I had, probably something dumb.
Finally done with this day challenge, took me long enough.
christmas was good. I didn’t get many presents and my parents felt absolutely horrible about not having enough money to spoil me, but I don’t care, seeing my parents, sister, and niece open their presents and love them was enough for me. Spending time with my family was good enough for me. I was happy. This year is coming to an end and i couldnt be happier. i went through a lot of...
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Day 28- An embarrassing/awkward situation you’ve found yourself in:
I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve embarrassed myself so many times and I definitely put myself in really awkward situations ALL the time. Uhhhh… yesterday at work I felt like such an idiot all day because every time I opened my mouth to talk I would stutter, forget what I’m saying, or just...
I’m bringing in Christmas Eve crying because I’m so sick of everything. I’m so drained, physically and emotionally. What is my problem? I hate that I listen to everyone else’s problems but nobody (with the exception of like 3 people) cares to ask what’s going on with me and why I’m upset. I probably wouldn’t talk anyway. I’m usually SO happy...
I’ve lost a lot of people this year and I couldn’t possibly care less about 80% of them, but i’m going to start making more of an effort to see the ones I do care about.
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Day 22-Post a bit of your last IM conversation:
I’m never on my computer anymore so I don’t know what the last IM conversation I had was.
Day 23- 5 things you want to change:
I want to change the fact that I get upset so easily.
I want to start working harder at putting together my portfolio.
I want to change where I live.
I want to change the people I know (not all, but many)
I...
I’m really behind in my day challenge, I’ve just been so busy with worl and school. I’ll catch up on it tomorrow, well today when I’m on my computer. I’m so glad I’m on break. I’ve been so stressed and taking it out on everyone else, sowwwy. It doesn’t really feel like christmas time and I hate it :(. I can’t wait for christmas eve so I can...
horoscopes are always right.
You need bigger and longer hugs than usual today, Taurus. A powerful force is moving through your life and trying to shake things up. Don’t stoop to the level of petty argument and verbal sparring. The more you resist the opposition, the more stubborn and unwieldy the situation becomes. Make sure you have a good hold on your emotions before you leave the house. Wahhhh
I don’t want to play games. Everything is such a game to everyone.
Today is the end of the semester… one semester left and I’m off to Montserrat. I need a change of scenery and people.
It really, really, really bothers me that I do everything I can for my friends when they ask for a favor and I’m always there for them, but whenever I need something, more than half of them can’t be bothered by me. When will I ever mean as much to someone as they mean to me? Never.
I’m sick of work and I’m sick of school. I can’t wait for my 38 hour week next week to be over and to be on winter break. All I want to do is sleep forever. My arm hurts. Finally getting my hello kitty tattoo touched up tomorrow… really considering adding roses to it… I shouldn’t… I don’t have the money for it… but I might. Ruht roh!
Day 21- Press ctrl and v and post.
…. I did and nothing was copied. How exciting.
Seven Deadly Sins Photoshoot →
These are probably the best pictures I’ve ever taken, I’m proud of myself.
Day 20- Your best sexual experience/your sex life...
This is quite personal! Let’s not go here haha
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Day 18- To do list:
reprint all the pictures for my photographing people class
eat chinese food
go to class
come home
who knows.
go to bed.
Day 19- Post a picture without any make up on/hair done:
Absolutely not.
today…well yesterday… i was with erin on 290, she was driving and rear ended someone. now almost every muscle in my arm and shoulder is pulled :(. owww. I’m done trying to find reasons for things to go wrong, things will be turn out pretty well, I’m almost sure of it. :)
hm… I don’t even know what to say. Maybe I’m just fooling myself.
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Day 16- A drunken story:
hmmm…. Is it bad that the only drunken stories I can remember are terrible ones that I would rather not embarrass myself telling haha.
Day 17- Something you regret:
I regret SO many things that I wouldn’t even know where to begin. Sorry I made these two days so boring.
I guess my eyes are dry cause I have an infection from make up. That doesn’t happen, but of course to me it does. I’m more upset that I can’t wear makeup til it’s gone. Fuck.
things don’t chane and people don’t change. I haven’t changed, I like to think I have, but I haven’t i’m too scared to change. Too scared of everything. Everything...
13,14,15... i tried staying timely with this......
Day 13- Name one person off of tumblr you’d throw off a cliff, one you’d marry, and one you’d shag:
Well saying who I would throw off a cliff would just cause too much drama, I’d say I’d marry Kristen, but she’s already my wife, and I follow fuckyeahjesselacey, so if that counts, obviously I’d shag Jesse Lacey…. hahaha shag.
Day 14- Something...
My eyes are dry and swollen and itchy and I look like I’m on crack. I can cover it with makeup but then they’ll just keep getting worse… but I’m going to cover it with makeup. Never ending cycle.
I wish I could stop stressing myself out for like five minutes. I have a week to get my final project done in my photography class and I just do not see it happening. The only day I have time to do it is Friday and not everyone can come over to do it. I wish I could just ask for a fucking day off of work, but no, I’ll get fired. I have no idea what I’m going to do.
Day 12- What you're currently worrying about:
I’m worried about a lot. I’m worried about school and getting all my work done when I have no time for it, I’m worried about finding the time to get my portfolio together, I’m worried about getting into Montserrat, I’m worried about where things are going to go from here, I’m worried if things are just going to end up the same, I’m worried that...
I slept for like eleven hours and I’m still absolutely exhausted and have no motivation or energy to do anything. Now I’m getting sick too. Fuck. This sucks.
Why am I always put in such predicaments? It always happens.
9,10,11... I have no time to do these in a timely...
Day 9- Something that makes you sad when you think about it:
I tend to over-think everything so I make myself upset about things that shouldn’t make me upset. I spend too much time over analyzing past and present situations. I always think of what I could have done or what I could do that I know won’t. I get sad over the dumbest shit.
Day 10- One thing you’ve lied about:
I...
bitchbitchbitch wahwahwah
I don’t have a day off until Monday… and then I have a meeting at school to set up my classes for next semester, then class at 4. Then I have Tuesday off too, but I have another meeting at school, then class at 7. I need to find time to start my final project for Photographing People. I’m so excited to do it but I don’t have any time. I have so much I need to do. ...
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Day 6- How you’d spend 10,000 dollars:
I would buy a car, put it on the road, go clothing shopping and go christmas shopping, then save whatever was left for college.
Day 7- Things you like/don’t like about the way you look:
like: my eyes, my lips, being little (to an extent).
don’t like: my nose x a million, my teeth, how easily I get bored with my hair. I could probably go...
I’ll get to my day challenge later… I have no time anymore. I work too much. I’m stressed. I need to get my shit together and work harder in school. No matter how much I sleep, I still feel like I haven’t slept in weeks. I’m absolutely exhausted and my body just wants to sleep for days. I think it’s because of anemia. Wah. Why am I even writing this...