October 2010
78 posts
Day 28: Favorite Places to shop
forever 21, wet seal, burlington coat factory, marshalls, tj maxx, things of those natures.
Day 29 Provide the HEX code of your favorite color /http://www.febooti.com/products/iezoom/online-help/online-color-chart-picker.html
#FDB2F4
we called it making love but we knew it wasn’t that, we checked none of the above and we never made a mention after that.
Why the fuck is almost everyone I know such fucking cowards? I am so sick of everything, I don’t want to be around here anymore.
I woke up an hour before my alarm was set for… this never happens. I had a stupid fucking dream and woke up crying.
This is my last attempt, then I have nothing more to say.
You said I was Summer Finn, but really, you are.
Things change way too quickly. I miss my friends… or the people I thought were my friends. Everything fucking sucks. Wah.
This is completely contradicting my last post.
There's no point in caring because caring gets...
Day 27: A talent of yours
I guess a growing talent of mine is photography… or so I’d like to think. I am learning a lot in my photo classes and I have a long way to go, but I think I’ve come a long way.
Why is it that when a guy wants to stop dating/seeing a girl, whatever the fuck he’s doing with her, he just completely ignores her and stops talking to her? Own up to it and say whatever it is, knowing is way better than being left in the dark when the girl is completely oblivious as to why. That’s what I think anyway, but maybe I just expect too much. Who knows.
don't let them see you cry
I feel like such a fucking idiot. I should learn from the first time someone fucks me over. People don’t change. I think I at least deserve an explanation, but of course I’ll never get one. Why do I let people in?
I will lie awake and lie for fun and fake the way...
let you fall for every empty word i say.
i feel like every boy i come in contact with should just sing this song to me upfront.
If it weren't for bad luck i'd have none at all.
Why the fuck is every single thing I do going wrong? Losin’ it
got scared and ran away from you.
I feel like I let everyone down. My parents have so many expectations of me for school and I feel like I’m constantly letting them down. I need to get my shit together. I need to get a job… If I didn’t pass this drug test I’m going to be so pissed, I want to work at Target Portrait Studio so bad. I also need my license and a car pronto. I feel like once I have those...
Day 26: Favorite books
I love all books by Sarah Dessen, but I also love Alice in Wonderland and Alice Through the Looking Glass. Oh and Fight Club. I wish I read more than I do.
Day 25: A letter to someone you judged by their...
I judge everyone by their first impression so I don’t know one specific person I could write this too. I almost never like people the first time I meet them, especially girls. I judge every little thing about girls the first time I meet them, their voice, they way they talk, what they talk about, how they look, how they dress, everything. Most of the time I’m completely wrong about...
I feel like things are always so up and down with you and it’s so confusing. I just wish things could be clear. Maybe I’m just over-thinking as always.
Why am I writing in my tumblr instead of doing my essay that’s due tomorrow? I procrastinate so bad.
I don’t want you to move back in. I don’t want to deal with the constant fighting everyday. I don’t...
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I need
motivation and some sort of inspiration and my license and a car and to pass the drug test monday to work at target portrait studio and to draw and build my portfolio … for a school I doubt I’ll even get into and keep up with school while working and doing the rest of this shit. and still try to have a life and still try to keep my friends… the ones who are still around that is.
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Day 24 Time to face...
Okay, I did this and then it didn’t post the pictures of me. This is dumb.
you think i'll let you down, but i won't.
You have no idea how scared I am. I wish I knew what was going on.
I feel like 90% of the people I know mean WAY more to me than I mean to them… it’s always been that way and it’s always going to be that way. I feel like such a piece of shit lately. I wish I could just say what I want to say. I wish everyone didn’t fuck with my head. I wish I didn’t constantly...
Day 22: A photo that makes you happy
Day 23 Share one of your current favorite tunes
Talking Shit About a Pretty Sunset by Modest Mouse<3
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE being ignored :)
naaaht
It’s really depressing to find out that people you thought were your best friends all hate you and think you’re this terrible person. I know I’m a bitch and I know I’m sarcastic, but if you claim to be my best friends, you should know me well enough to know that I do care about people, and yes I am sarcastic, but it’s sarcasm, not how I feel about things. So, you...
Give Kristen and I junk food...
cupcakes
ice cream
milkshakes
cookies
brownies
fudge
candy
ice cream cake
strawberry shortcake
kahlua cake
mudslides
pina coladas
strawberry daquiris… we’re getting a little off topic here.
…all of it.
now.
Why is it
that no matter what I do, no matter what I say… I am ALWAYS wrong. I’m not saying I’m always right, but I know I’m not always wrong. I’m constantly made out to be this horrible person. I know I’m a bitch, I say what’s on my mind, and I’ve done stupid shit, but that doesn’t make me a terrible person. I put on such a front. I act like...
Day 21: Your favorite television program
I guess I’d have to say America’s Next Top Model and Project Runway, and maybe the Bad Girls Club.
Well I guess this is what I get for trying to tell the truth. If I had just lied there would be no issue.
Everything is so dumb right now and I’m going to have a mental breakdown.
Day 19: Whatever tickles your fancy
What tickles my fancy is cuddling and cute kissies, especially when it’s cold out… all I wanna do is snuggle and watch movies and get cute little kisses on my nose and forehead. :)
Day 20: A letter to Someone that changed your life
Dear you,
You changed my life in a lot of ways. I was in a relationship with you for over a year and in that...
The past is the past for a reason and should not determine things in your future.
Also, the drama going on right now is ridiculous. I miss my solid group of best friends. Yes, we’re all changing. Yes, we’re all growing up and going through shit, but there’s no reason we shouldn’t do it together and be there for eachother. Say what’s on your mind, try to resolve...
There’s blood in my mouth ‘cause I’ve been biting my tongue all week I keep on talkin’ trash but I never say anything And the talkin’ leads to touchin’ and the touchin’ leads to sex and then there is no mystery left And It’s bad news Baby I’m bad news I’m just bad news, bad news, bad news I know I’m alone if I’m with...
growing up means growing apart.
I put entirely too much effort into people who will never do the same for me. I am there for everyone when they need someone and I drop EVERYTHING for them, but almost none of them would EVER do it for me. It’s really fucking sickening. The summer ended and apparently so didn’t our friendships. What fucking pisses me off most is that none of you even have the balls to confront me. ...
catching up
Day 16: Provide pictures of 5 celebrity crushes
obviously the love of my life.
and for some reason i’m completely drawing a blank to any other attractive male celebrities.. i’ll update this and change it.
Day 17: A photo that makes you sad
I don’t have any on my computer that make me sad, I don’t think.
Day 18: Set or share a goal
Get into Montserrat for Fall...
Stop fucking treating my best friend like shit, you bitch. I am so sick of everyone fucking catering to every single one of your needs and not considering her at all. You’re the one who is a fucking bitch, you’re the one who is selfish, you’re the one who complains about all the same shit all the time. So why the fuck is it okay for you to be that way? How the hell do you...
Day 15: A letter to someone you wish you could...
Dear Jesse Lacey (as if this wasn’t obvious),
I think you are the most talented and beautiful man alive. My life would honestly be complete in every way if I could meet you. Your lyrics are so fucking beautiful and have honestly gotten me through so much. Whenever I’m upset, if I listen to Brand New, I’m instantly in such a better mood. I’ve seen you four times and I...
Ridiculously good mood
It’s weird and I love it haha.
behind as always.
Day 12: We want to see your teeth today / Post a self-portrait
awkward. oh well.
Day 13: Whatever tickles your fancy
oh hello<33333
Day 14: A song from your childhood
I don’t feel like finding the song and posting the actual thing, but I used to be in love with the spice girls hahaha.
My head hurts so bad. I haven’t slept in so long… not a full night’s sleep anyway. I’m tired. My mom told me I’ve been a bitch lately because I need to sleep. I should stop and take care of myself. I feel like I’m going to puke, but here I am, waiting for a ride to go out. I admitted to my mom last night that I smoke weed. I was mad high and looking for...
Christina Richard, stay strong, beautiful<3.
Her and I used to be best friends, from about sixth grade to freshman year. We went through hell and back together, I have never been through half the things with anyone else than I have with that girl. She taught me so much. I miss her so much and we keep saying that we’re going to hang out and we haven’t yet… that’s why...
Day 11: Share your favorite recipe
I don’t know many recipes, but fried chicken and waffles is my favorite food… so some variation of that.
Done talking about things, done questioning things. All it does is start drama, with everyone. I don’t care anymore. FUCK IT DUDE! :)
I'm sick of humans
and drama
and keeping my mouth shut
and not ever knowing how you feel.
Day 10: A letter to the person you hate most or...
I don’t know who I hate the most. I know who the person who caused me the most pain is, but I’m sick of having to write about him on these challeneges. I don’t hate him anymore, I just don’t care, and I don’t care to talk about how much he hurt me because none of it matters anymore. It’s the most wonderful feeling to get over something and just not care about...
