February 2010
22 posts
Don’t talk shit about me or my friends. I’ve had enough.
I’m trying to swallow my jealousy because everything else is perfect, things are even starting to come together for next year. I know I will always be jealous though. Too many people have hurt me and made me this way. I wish I could just get over it and move on and let it make me a better person, but instead it makes me...
January 2010
25 posts
Finally getting all my applications together and sent out today. So stressful!
http://www.formspring.me/stefyyyp
haha formspring was the worst invention everrr, but it’s so addicting, I don’t know why. I keep getting things telling me I’m not a photographer and I’m not good at taking pictures so I shouldn’t go to school for it. Correct me if I’m wrong, but don’t people usually go to college for photography to learn more and get...
Ask me anything http://formspring.me/stefyyyp
I want to create something beautiful but I haven’t the motivation, much less the talent.
http://www.formspring.me/stefyyyp
Everyone else is doing it… why not?
I can only try
to be everything that you want, but I’m so much you hate.
I want everything to work and I am determined to make everything better, even if it means biting my tongue. I don’t know how to not be jealous even though I really have nothing and no one to be jealous of. I wish so many of my friends didn’t steal guys right from me, or that so many guys I liked didn’t fuck my...
I don’t want to be angry anymore, at anyone at all. When did I become such an angry fucking humanbeing?
wait a second...
…what the hell is going on here?
Lady Gaga is taking over the world and I’m okay with it! hahaha
I’ve got friends in all the right places I know what they want and I know they want me to stay.
I trust enough that people won’t hurt me,
then they hurt me,
then I trust they won’t hurt me again,
and they hurt me.
and I still trust.
This has been going on for years.
My new years resolution was to not let people walk all over me and I’m already failing with that.
I want to be happy, I want to finish all my college applications and get them sent out so I can stop...
No matter how optimistic I try to be,
I’m always a pessimist at heart.
No matter how hard we try, something bad always happens.
We're concentrating on falling apart.
I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe in us.
I’m tired of fighting and I’m tired of crying. I want to matter to the people that matter to me. I want to FEEL it. I want everything to be fixed because I can’t stomach the idea of losing you.
hey
My name’s Stefani…
and I don’t matter.
http://oxburiedaliex.tumblr.com/ask
:)
I thoroughly enjoy when people I know and have known for months to years see me in public and act like they don’t know me because I’m not with the person they know me by. You act like you’re better than everyone, well you’re not.
2010
Every year for new years eve I spend forever trying to make plans for a perfect fun night and every year I get let down and my plans are always messed up. Instead of going to Billy’s with Dylan and everyone as planned, Dylan and I spent the night at his house cuddling and watching movies; Our plans were completely screwed up and not how we planned our night but it was perfect, because at the...